Tuesday, December 27, 2011

one week

Wow! Only one week left in 2011. This year has flown!

Christmas recap:

12/22 - Christmas lunch at work then off to Kevin O'Bryan's for drinks - 2 pints of GL Christmas Ale and 3 Coors Lights and I was HAMMERED!!! Ye-ouch! - then over to Keith and Lindsay Busch's home for fellowship and friends! It was great - stayed out late with no kids. Woo hoo - just wish Rob was there.

12/23 - Nice Friday off work! Not much to do. Stayed up too late wrapping the last few presents. Made cookies - Pumpkin helped. We made peanut butter blossoms (with the Hershey's kisses), chocolate chip and oatmeal-chocolate-peanut butter no bake cookies. Pumpkin put the sugar and brown sugar in the bowl for me and also unwrapped kisses. Fun! Bigs - not interested in cookies at all - except that we had to make them for Santa.

12/24 - fun times at the Boughner's home for Christmas Eve. Jay, Joie, Jordan, Connie, Charlie, Sheryl, Marcus, Mike, Kendall, Joe, Sharon, Holly, and the four of us! It was a great time. Then over to Rob's brother's house. That kinda sucked. Next year, we will do differently on the Eve...

12/25 - OMG! My kids are total present whores! I think we will do a charity event or find a family in need or something next year so they can do something for someone else. Maybe they are too young. They acted like such total brats. I was kind of shocked. I have to do a better job parenting. I just am lazy. Shame on me.

12/26 - went to see Rob's mom in Mentor! Long drive. Not much to say except that my kids are still present whores. Little bucketheads!

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

spirit

I have no Christmas spirit. Although, I did pray this morning at my desk and it felt pretty good. It felt like God actually was listening. Nice. Thank you, Lord! I will be back soon!

Friday, December 9, 2011

no thoughts

I am a lameass blogger. I don't have any good ideas. Sorry! (Thank goodness I am the only one who reads this!) Hahahahaha! My electronic journal.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

not alone

man - I have a lot going on with regard to Ben in school or Ben AND school. Is the inclusion classroom really right for him when he has so much trouble getting through the day? Should he feel bad and sorry and sad EVERY DAY? Should I allow my kid to sit curled up at the end of the day crying and apologizing to the teacher that he was BAD today? No - this ain't cool. There has to be SOMETHING.

I am not the only one thinking or blogging about this subject, though. I have just read about three-four other blogs on schools, LRE (least restrictive environment), homework, socializing, having trouble in class. Cripes. I'm not alone. I'm not alone.

I'm. Not. Alone.

There are things out there I can do to help Ben better than I am now. My eyes have been opened to possibilities other than Inclusion and the Mainstream. Hell, I'm not really a mainstream gal (Or at least I wish I wasn't!). Need to turn my thoughts to actions, I believe! How to do that is the question. I am going to let the new behavior plan in his IEP take effect and try it out for a few weeks. (Maybe until Christmas Break). If it isn't helping, then we have to look at more accomodations. See - I know all these big words now!

Holy crap. I'm not alone.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

elbow pain

I have tendinitis or some elbow issue. I blame the dog, or rather, walking the dog. Or being dragged by the dog. I guess maybe I blame the groundhog that dug the hole in the backyard to which the dog drags me while I walk him!

Gotta take care of Mommy here. Gyno appt - yearly, mammo; Gen Prac appt - elbow. I need to make appointments.

Need money to pay the hospital for the parenting sessions... shit!

Friday, October 28, 2011

aggression

BB is being very aggressive at school (and home a bit) when he doesn't want to do something or he gets frustrated. I am checking into aggression and autism online. It looks like it happens a lot in autistic kids.

From what I see there are three ways to go about fixing this. Diet interventions, ABA Therapy or Drugs. I wan to avoid the meds if at all possible. Especially since Rob and Jimmy are pretty much against it. So - I think I will combine food and therapy. We will be going to one-on-one OT at Children's pretty soon. I will see if we can concentrate on dealing with frustration and calming aggressive behaviors. (Or else there's gonna be trouble when he's bigger!)

Trying to work with BB's limited repertoire of food choices, I am going to do some gluten- and casein-free food. Gluten is in grains (not oats, though, apparently) and Casein is in dairy products. I am going to try soy milk in the oatmeal. Maybe even try to find a gluten-free oatmeal. On the bread side, I am going to try a gluten-free bread. I'm pretty sure peanut butter is gluten-free. The problem is going to be the Wheat Thins and graham crackers. I'll have to introduce some other snacks. Maybe telling him that this might make his days go better at school will do the trick. I have to write a social story about  eating and school and aggression for him.

The therapy option will be tough for me. I will restart the Triple P training and get though it and implement it. The bad behavior is the fists and the air-punching and the pushing/shoving/leaning when he's upset. His good behaviors are cleaning up after himself, doing his homework, being nice to his sister, listening well and following our directions. I have to reward those good acts, make some goals for him (with reward) and try to diminish the bad behaviors (with discipline).

The drug option is not one that I have considered in the past. Now, it's even a harder choice as I found out the meds are anti-psychotics. In pre-pubescent children? Eek - that bothers me a lot. Resperidol or something. I saw a long facebook post yesterday that a mother sent into the Autism Society's page. Some folks said it was heaven-sent. Others said it made them sick, made them gain a lot of weight or made no difference. I am calling the Neuro-Developmental department today to get an appointment with Carolyn Muja - his CNP.

BB's IEP meeting is Nov. 10. They are going to put some new things in place at school to see if they help. Social stories and scheduled breaks. How I wish I had put him in early intervention services at the school district. Oh, well - can't look back! Only forward. And my boy will be fine. We will get though it. I love love love him so very much. I hate to see him sad and upset. I want him to be happy and have friends. *sigh*

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

light

Yipee! The head of the Special Ed department for the school district called me yesterday. She observed Big Boy in class and saw some things that she could do to help him get through the day better. Wow! It was awesome to have the attention to detail!

She said he "knows himself well". However, he sometimes waits too long to take a break before getting upset. So we are going to build breaks into his day. Also, the transition time when he's not quite done with his work. They are going to make him a special folder and put his unfinished work in it to take to a sort of "study hall" with the school's Special Ed teacher. Hopefully, that will alleviate that frustration.

Gotta go - Bigs has a sore throat - might have to go get him at school...

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

ugh

having a really bad couple of days...

1. Big Boy is having lots of trouble in school. I don't know what to do!
2. Being sued by Target for not paying my bill. I don't have a problem with that except I have no money to pay them.
3. Rob's an ass.
4. "Uncle Jim" is really, really sick and I'm worried about him and Ginny. :(
5. I have bill collectors calling me all day long and no money to pay them. I'm gonna have to start answering the phone and talking to them.

I can't tell my parents. They'll freak... I can't upset them. They don't need the trouble. Ugh....

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

good night, good night, good night

I keep trying to get the kids to bed a little earlier each night. Once my boy's head hits the pillow, he's out. Since age 5; he's 7 now. So, we had five years of not sleeping until 11pm or so. Get up at 6:30-6:45 am - he wasn't getting near enough sleep. Now, he's sleeping from 10 pm - 7 pm. Not ideal, but better.

Now, for my little girl: She just does NOT want to go to sleep! I try to keep the nighttime activities routine each night. Wash up, brush teeth, use the potty, sing songs with her Curious George stuffed toy, read a book or two, lay down. Say silly good nights and have hugs and kisses. Then, in half an hour, she's sneaking out into the living room. She's just stalling, I know.

Time for work - I actually have some to do today.

Monday, October 3, 2011

week of sept 26

Why not?

9/26 - I got nothin'. Boring Monday. Slow week at work.

9/27 - FIG group at ACH. I forgot and got there late. Dumbass.

9/28 - took the kids to the Dr. for well visits. No co-pay - who knew? Flu vaccinations for both of them. I hate to give Ben a shot, but he'd never take the mist.

9/29 - Thursday? Wow - what a bore I am.

9/30 - Ah, Friday! Locked my keys in my car at Giant Eagle at Chapel Hill. My best pal came and helped get me back to work. Later she and her family came over to play games and drink beer! Bunk took a defiant piss right in front of us. Can't really blame him, though. He tried to tell Rob he needed to go!

10/1 - Saturday again... Pumpkin is sick with a cold and a fever. But hell - at least it slows her down a little. That's mean, but true!

10/2 - Happy Sunday. Miserable weather. Did NOTHING today but eat and watch TV. I will have to do something fun next week.

Friday, September 23, 2011

week of sept 19

Hi ho! Hi ho! It's home from work I go. Yay! I am buying two cheap bottles of wine and drinking one with dinner and one after kiddies go to bed.

Week in Review:
Mon., Sept. 19 - International Talk Like a Pirate Day! One of my favorite days! Too bad I didn't have a party or something to go to. Big boy had his science test today!!

Tue., Sept. 20 - Ben got 23 out of 28 on his science test. Yay! But he fell asleep in class, too. 1st daddy said he wouldn't go to sleep Monday night.

Weds, Sept. 21 - normal day but holy crap, the meltdown at bedtime. I told Bigs he could play Wii until 8:30, then he could come upstairs and watch "Tangled". When it was 8:30 I called him and he wanted to stay downstairs and play Wii (Daddy Rob was down there). When he came up at 9:20, first he want4ed Root Beer - uh, no... Then he said he wanted to watch the movie. Uh, no, again! All holy hell breaks loose with that kid. He hasn't had a meltdown in about a year. On the sidelines, little miss screamy was going nuts. I lost it! I screamed like a mad crazy person at both of them and Pumpkin cried and Big Boy called me an idiot and was so mad at me for screaming. I just scared them. I am ridiculous. Stupid. It was awful. After all these years, I still don't know how to get him out of the meltdown rut. He wouldn't take a deep breath. He wouldn't "slow down his engine". I was at a loss. I haven't learned ANYTHING. Shit. I need a book, I think. Or to finish that Triple P book and activities.

Thurs., Sept. 22 - much better evening - no food for Big Boy, but he ate some wheat thins. Got to bed late again. I have to get these kids in bed. Rewards, I guess would work.

And now - TGIF!!!! See above.

On deck: Saturday - Maize Valley Winery for Family Fall Fun Fest - then Roasted Garlic Soup to Erin Garvey's.
Sunday: Watching Brown's game, doing homework, recovering from Saturday.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

myautismteam

This website is great!

My own post from this morning: "Wow! So much of an easier morning by getting the kids to bed 1/2 hr earlier the night before. (breathes sigh of relief). Still was almost late for work - but that's par for the course.

I have to figure out the best way for Ben to study/prepare for a test. I am thinking memorizing is the easiest. Isn't that kind of what you do in 2nd grade? Sorry - rambling."

 - - - yes, memorizing is going to be our best route. He can remember all the movie and TV lines, then we can get him to remember his science answers. He hates hates hates to drill on things for school. I have to use time limits and rewards. Aye-aye-aye... (As Grandma Hogberg used to say)

Monday, September 12, 2011

Friday, September 9, 2011

dentist

So, BB, Pumpkin and I went to the dentist yesterday. I chose a pediatric dentist who has treated autistic kids. And three year olds. Apparently.

Anyhoo... the kids wouldn't let the hygienists barely LOOK in their mouths. The dentist and I got a fluoride treatment into Pumpkin's mouth. Big Boy was having none of it. No cleaning, no X-rays, no brushing, nothing!

So, $220.00 for a half-hour playtime with the dentist office's toys. Fabulous!

Friday, September 2, 2011

yeeee-ouch!

Big Boy got stung by a bee for the first time yesterday evening at a friend's house. He was sitting at an outdoor table working on his homework and just jumped up going "Ow! Ow! Ow!" and holding his hand to the back of his neck. Sure enough, I got a stinger and half a bee's ass out of my guy's neck!

Not allergic, thank goodness!! Now I know that, at least. It got really red and a little welt popped up, but it seems to be gone today! That had to hurt on the neck like that. He didn't cry! But it hurt pretty bad.

Pumpkin want to slide down a pile of dirt sand rocks. To each her own, I guess - she kept at it! Finally she changed to the sliding board on the swing set. Yikes! Swinging and singing. She's a happy girl, even if she doesn't get enough sleep!

Thursday, September 1, 2011

inattention

I'm very worried about Ben and school now. I talked to his teacher last night and she said he is very inattentive in class. He gets up out of his desk and just wanders arounud the room. She said she'd never had an autistic student who really needed an aide, but that it looks like Ben might. At least to help him keep on task.
 
I told him this morning to stay at his desk and listen to the teacher and to keep at his work. He's all, "Okay, Mommy! I will!" and what can I do but believe him? I will keep my fingers crossed that he has a good day! Constant reminders often work with Ben. That's step one.

Maybe I'll have to follow my friend's lead and get him into a private school with a smaller student/teacher ratio. I feel so bad that I haven't prepared him better for school... Now's the time to change that!

Just venting!

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

school starts today

2nd grade! I can't believe it! Well, it was one of my favorites. I hope BB has a super start to the year. His new teacher knows him already, and I'm sure she's familiar with his IEP. And she's very sweet!

We confused him last night with talk of taking the bus - he didn't want to go to Latchkey this morning. I have to take care of all  of that... yikes! Picture schedules, I think!!

I need a schedule, too - I have to get lunch ready at night. Ugh! I hope he eats his sandwich today. He didn't eat barely one sandwich at Day Camp all summer.

I hope transition times go well today, too. I told him to listen to teacher and to do everything she says. I hope he doesn't get bossy with the kids. So many worries - it won't even be a hard day today, this first day!

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

anxious

I have that anxious, hollow feeling in my chest today.  Ugh! My doctor told me to take my pulse at these times for a minute. He gave me ranges of what's good and bad, etc. I think it just gives me a minute to focus on something other than wandering through my worries and lets me get back to my business. Thanks, Doc!

I think a collection agency just called work! Shit!! They're coming to take me away, ha ha!

Okay - I don't like the italics!

My cousin is watching the kids while my mom is out of town. I hope they are being good for her. She's says they are. The dog got out on her yesterday. Big oaf of a dog! She got him back. Shoulda just let him go. (I am evil)....

Friday, August 5, 2011

happy birthday, big boy!!

My beautiful son, Ben, is 7 years old today. Such a big guy! I am so lucky he's mine!!!

Monday, July 25, 2011

little girl who I love...

Dear Pumpkin,

You're a sweet little thing and I love you so very, very much. You're so smart and clever. I love to see you "catch birds" and "catch bugs". I love how you hang on the swing-set and cry for help, even though you don't need it. You're just waiting to see if we will come to help in order to tease us with your sly little smirk as you wrap your surprisingly long legs around the glider to slide down to the ground.

I am sorry if I yell at you too much! We will battle wills for the next twenty years, most likely. I hope I can give you a good base. A good base like I got from my parents. Something that's there even when you screw up. Just so you know you can fix any mistakes you make in life. I wish for you such a great life. I want you to be so happy in your life.

I love how you ask, "Mommy! Can I play with yours phone?" And how do you know how to work it at age 3???

I love it when you want to read a book before bed - even if we've been trying to get to bed for 45 minutes. All the time, little one, I adore you!

XOXOXOXO

oh, the weather outside is frightful!

BB is a budding meteorologist, methinks. The child is on and on constantly about how cloudy or rainy or hot it is. The iPhone is his new best friend. We have a Weather Channel app and it's pretty much in use at least 2-3 hours a day. (on and off - not all at once).

It's pretty funny!

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

vacation

I am ready to get out of Dodge! I can't wait to walk on the beach, play in the sand, lay by the pool, etc., etc., etc.

Thursday, June 23, 2011

kids are cool!

Had a lot of fun last night in the dark back yard checking out, chasing and catching lightning bugs. They light up the pines in the back like Christmas trees with twinkle lights. It's really cool. I didn't notice until last year.

Daddy was lighting off bottle rockets. I hope we didn't wake up the little ones next door. BB loooooved the bottle rockets! Baby did too. how fun!!

Our friends are coming out tonight to hang. I hope it doesn't rain. BB will want to be playing Wii. I hope the girls will play outdoors at least for a while. Chinese or Pizza??? Can't wait!! Happy Thursday!

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

happy birthday, little girl!

June 20, 2008. A great day or one that will live in infamy? The darling Amanda Paige Jevnikar is born. Sunshine!! Happy Birthday, Baby! We went for ice cream at the Cold Stone Creamery. Yum!! Amanda got blue Cotton Candy ice cream. With M&Ms in it. I don't know if that really goes together - but hey - it's her birthday!!!

I love you more than I can express, baby!!! xoxoxoxo

Monday, June 20, 2011

summer camp #2

Oh my gosh! I am a basket case. I dropped Big Boy off at the YMCA today. He wasn't on any list. The camp counselor I NEEDED to be there wasn't. I hope that she works a later shift.

I hope he gets his T-shirt. I hope he doesn't have a meltdown and they think he's just bad. Shit!

Thursday, June 16, 2011

summer camp

BB starts summer camp at the YMCA next week. I hope he likes it! I wish I could just be home with them all summer long!!

Anyhoo! I'm excited for BB. He'll get to be with the gal who was the latchkey supervisor at school. Swimming - going to the park - going to the zoo - FUN STUFF!

Little girl, we have to get her in somewhere for mom to golf with her pals on Tuesday. My BFF says she will take Pumpkin on those days. We can coordinate when BB is at the Y...

Monday, June 13, 2011

Monday, May 16, 2011

iep revision

Whew! Just got to work from an IEP revision meeting at BB's school. Ugh! Poor boy. I wish it was easier for him. I wish I had a frame of reference so that I could tell him how to make this thing work for himself. Thank goodness for the team. They know things. They want to know more. I sit there with a half-blank look on my face. Just a lot to absorb. I should have recorded it on my iPhone. I took notes, but I wanted to listen, too - the notes, they are not so good!

Issues: needs pressure/seeking for sensory input, invades others' personal space, organization, anger, refusing to do work, participation

Triggers: writing, tests (reassurance), getting in line, emergency drills, seeks immediate attention from teacher

Solutions: small group for testing, written and posted schedules, digital timer, keyboard use w/word prediction software added to IEP, sensory area to include cooldown (?) area, give him choices, whole classroom schedule, schedule sensory time around trigger subjects, more social stories

Summer Activities: YMCA Summer Day Camp or Kid's Country Summer Program, probably YMCA

I will do everything I can for this boy! I feel like I haven't done enough. I will be doing much more. This is a loving caring kind boy who needs help to get through school.

I think we need to see a child psychologist for the anger/frustration issues. It's not all behavior - however, if we can work on that together, then he might not be angry and/or frustrated. He has to have anger or resentment issues regarding his family being torn apart by me and adding sister, etc.

My baby will be happy and have success for himself!

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

sick

So, every time I get a little allergic reaction to pollen or whatever, I get full blown flippin' pneumonia! Well, maybe bronchitis, really, For cryin' out loud, the coughing! BB covers his ears when I cough and Miss A screams (big surprise).

My ribs ache all the way around. Whine!!!! I need cheese!

BB had an aggressive moment yesterday. He pulled the teacher's hair because she didn't have time for him right then. She was doing a lesson with other students. Ugh! I told him he needs to go to his classmates for help before he asks the teacher. And do not hurt anyone. I hope he's not going to be the kid everyone tiptoes around for fear of an explosion of temper. Criminy! This woman is really great with him, though. She loves him. He loves her, too. He's very lucky. I hope 2nd grade brings a great teacher, too. Crossing fingers.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

lame!

I do like writing this blog. I just don't have a lot to say. I am financially in a shitstorm and I need to get it together. And I need a psychiatrist, too, I think.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

baby girl

I forgot to write about this last week. My baby woke up last Tuesday unable to put any weight on her left leg. It was freaky! I thought that maybe it was asleep and she was feeling pins and needles as it woke up, but after an hour and a half, she still hurt. "Ow-eee! Ow-eee!" My poor girl!

So, off we go to the ER at Children's Hospital. 9:15 - 2:15 and it's a common childhood ailment called Toxic Synovitis. It's inflammation of the fluid around the hip joint due to a virus - like a cold or flu. It makes the kids' knees hurt. So - treat with ibuprofen and rest. 5-7 days for recovery.

My kid - good as new on Wednesday. Love that cutie-pie!

april 19, 2011

B lost a tooth at school yesterday. He was so happy to put it under his pillow last night. He was so funny. He said, "Ohhh! I can't sleep now 'cause I'm thinkin' about the tooth fairy. And she won't come unless I fall asleep!" and, "The tooth fairy is watchin' me on TV so she knows when I am asleep." Classic.

Poor little Miss A. Such a screamer!! She's talking better and better everyday. Hopefully when she can fully express herself, the screams will stop. At least inside the house! :) I love how she sits in bed and "reads" to herself before sleeping at night. That just started a week or two ago. I can't wait to see what she does next!

Monday, April 18, 2011

yippee!

Big Boy has been invited to his first schoolmate birthday party!! He's been invited to my best friend's daughter's birthday parties in the past, but this is the FIRST one from school. I am tickled pink. BB didn't get it at first. His friend gave him the invite first thing this morning and he put it in his latchkey basket with his book bag. Then she said, "Ben give it to your Mom." So he did and I made a big production out of reading it. The the light bulb went on and he got it! He was thrilled and ran right over to the little girl and is probably stuck on her like glue today! How fun! April 30 from 5-7pm at "Pump It Up".

Yippee!

Thursday, April 7, 2011

should be working

Ha! I should really get some work done here, but I want to blog instead. I really don't have anything to blog about but I will just use this as my diary and recap yesterday.

Let's see - I was worried about B and school - he was in a silly but almost angry mood. We got no calls from school. Late at night when I was tucking him in bed he asked me if I was going on his field trip. I asked if he wants me to go and he started to cry and said, "I want my daddy to go because he's my favorite friend, but he can't. He has to work too late." Broke my heart! He was so sad and he cried pretty hard. I hate myself for breaking up his family life. Making it confusing. Even though it's a little more complicated than that. Heck... Sometimes I just wish I could go back and do things a little differently. Well hell, you can't do that.. I just want my boy to be happy. Most of the time he is happy. Actually, I was pretty thrilled with the emotions and the way he said exactly what he needed and meant at the time. Not many "I don't know"s or "I'm sorry"s. That's a good thing.

Pumpkin woke up in the middle of the night with a wet wet bed. We changed that and got her situated again. Poor baby, but she went back to bed just fine. I think she really likes her "big girl bed". (I have to find furniture coasters for the bottom legs - 4"-6" dia.). She curls up like a little bug under the comforter.

My mom is making Pumpkin a dress for Easter and we went to try it on yesterday and Pumpkin was like "Ooh! Cute!" She says that all the time. Cracks me up!

I need to go to work now! :)

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

feeling better

So, I don't feel so bad today. Keeps raining - what shit is this? April showers and all. Blech... Lotsa work to do this morning so I had better get to it. Kids are okay. R is great. I need to see my pals J & J & J. Maybe tomorrow night.

OMG - I called daycare centers yesterday. For heaven's sake! - $185 average per week. That's a LOTTA money. I'll have to call again tomorrow. in the early PM maybe. Anyhow, Pumpkin needs to be around other kids and adults so she is someday able to know her role.

Big Boy is so good! I hope hr doesn't have homework tonight - what a drag!!

Monday, April 4, 2011

morning thoughts

1. I have to get to the Doctor. Make a list of symptoms - I think it's depression, but I need to make sure. That or liver failure...
2. Need to go to the "lady" doctor, too. Pap and Mam...
3. Write a list of questions for the CNP for Ben's appt on 4/27.
4. Day care for Amanda.
5. Summer camp for Ben - Calico?
6. Banking and Lawyering need to HAPPEN!!!!!

I am such a horrible procrastinator. Suck... not winning.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

ahhh

Feeling much better today. The kids were angels last night, pretty much! I can't wait until it warms up a little and we can stay outside to play for a ling time. Daddy got lucky and got to go to the Cleveland Cavs game last night - with floor seats under the basket, no less!!! Awesome....

Monday, March 21, 2011

ugh

I am so depressed. I am afraid of going off the deep end!

Thursday, March 10, 2011

yum!

So, I have been trying to keep track of my daily calorie intake. Dang! I eat a lot of crap. Last Thursday, I ate half a Gionino's large pepperoni pizza, then had pizza again on Friday. A Steak and mashed potatoes on Saturday and Corn bread taco pizza on Sunday. Oh - and lotsa mich ultra. So, no idea why I am not losing any weight.

This week, Monday i had Burger King - Mmmm Whopper with Cheese and fries and a Dr Pepper... Tuesday, Wednesday, calming down - having turkey and American on wheat. Some PB Toast in the AM with my coffee and Thursday - 6" Tuna Subway with lotsa veggies. Popcorn for a snack later and I will have to have leftover Jambalaya or Taco pizza for dinner. Keep drinking the water...

If the weather would break I could go out for a GD walk, too!!

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

goodness!

I am not a happy person. I am getting everything I deserve. But will it ever end? F-ing money.

Pity party for one, please. Crap.

Friday, March 4, 2011

monopoly march 4

Big Boy is absolutely in love with Monopoly. Board game, Wii game, Monopoly Jr., any version! He is the expert. He asked me to "say" some Community Chest and Chance cards a couple weekends ago. Thank goodness I know my Monopoly, too! Or else!

Take a walk on the Boardwalk, advance token to Boardwalk....

Thursday, March 3, 2011

i got nothin...

I am very boring! Everyone is doing good. I played Monopoly Streets with B last night. It was pretty fun!!! R was tired. A didn't want to go to bed, as usual. I told R to give her some Benadryl!!! Just kidding!

I got a tank of gas last night - 72.00 for 21 gallons. Yikes.

Mom wants to golf in April, so we have to find day care for A. It shouldn't be too hard to find a spot, but the cost scares me. Also, poor other kids!!! A needs to be with other kids so she learns how to interact. She'll get it!! Kid's Country? I do like it there. I have to call them. Need it for Bigs, too, in the summer.

Big Boy is eating a bit more heartily, finally. Let's hope he keeps it up and gains some of that weight back. It had to be the flu. The fever just lasted and lasted. He was even a tiny bit hot Tuesday night.

Big Boy is very excited about Student Appreciation Week at school this week. Wednesday was silly socks day and today is backwards day. He was THRILLED to put his T-shirt on backwards this morning. Funny! Tomorrow they have "The NED Show" coming. I am pretty sure it's an anti-bullying themed show. The kids can buy yo-yos after. No way that could go bad!!! Later, in the evening, there is Family Movie Night. They are showing "How to Train Your Dragon" and B said something like, "I guess we can put that on the list". Hah!

Friday, February 25, 2011

birthday!

Quick notes for myself.

K: Happy birthday to me!
R: Stressed out at work a little bit. Friday! Friday! Friday!
B: VERY happy that there's another snow day!
A: Sleepy baby! She's happy that Big Boy has a snow day, too. Now she has someone to play with!

My Aunt had surgery yesterday to remove some breast cancer. Let's hope it's all gone from her body now. Speaking of which, I need to get  checked pretty soon! Fun - yay.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

back to school

Big Boy goes back to school today. I hope he makes it! I couldn't get him to do any of his homework that his teacher sent home on Friday. I should have given it to J to work on with him over the weekend. He was super tired. I wonder if he'll fall asleep at school today?

We have to get a BIG thank you note tonight and write in it. Then B can take it to class tomorrow. The Get Well Soon cards were the best thing! Super cute.

It's a big day for him today. Shoot! FIG group after school. He's gonna be whipped. Poor guy!! I'd get him a treat if there was anything he liked for a treat. Maybe I can get him a little toy at WalMart or something.

Oh well. Here's hoping my little Big Boy has a good day!! xoxoxoxoxoxo

Monday, February 21, 2011

dinner

English Pot Roast was very tasty last night. I have to start making roast once a week. Plus I get to drink the bottle of wine afterwards!!!

Friday, February 18, 2011

february 2012

Oh my! I just saw this cruise through the Caribbean that is in February (this week, actually) and it is a Music cruise and ALL of my favorite groups are there. Indigo Girls, Shawn Mullins, Brandi Carlile. Crap! I am SO going next year if they have it again. I am going to sign up on the website. It would be the best time ever!! We'll see. Maybe we can do that next year. The Caribbean in February - how can that be bad? Other than hurricanes or sharks??

Thursday, February 17, 2011

doctor

So, I take Big Boy to the doctor yesterday. They checked him out and gave him a swab for strep throat, which came back negative. However, he still is feverish this morning. They didn't give me anything for him to take as far as medicine. I'm worried. My poor kiddo. He hasn't eaten much for five days. I don't know what to do.

Also, my cell phone is missing. And I am late to work (only by a couple minutes). Gotta go for now. This day is sucky already!!

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

this

http://www.hopefulparents.org/blog/2011/2/11/asd-and-ptsd.html

sentences

Ahh. I was just telling my Mother to have Big Boy write some sentences in his journal and gave her the teacher's reasoning. It helps with fluency in the language and thought processes. Not to mention grammar and spelling. Kids need to be able to write in order to have success.

When I think about it, that's why I started doing this blog. Not that I want anyone to read it. It is for me to express myself. No matter how awkward. I enjoy it. I was not a good writer in school. I got fine grades. I made my point and had all the correct structures to essays, etc. I just never had the flow or the right cadence or something. I recognize it now that I read so much. Whether a political blog, Stephen King or a Nora Roberts novel; now that I see good writing, I know mine isn't. Maybe this will help. I am not aspiring to anything like my BFF and her novel. Which I haven't read yet - shame on me. Maybe tonight.

Monday, February 14, 2011

counting stuff

Monday: 1 large pop from Burger King, fries and a double cheeseburger. (Should have had a bowl of chili from home and some carrots and water). No cigs or beers yet - skipping them tonight!

Sunday: 6-7 cigarettes, 5 Bud Lights, no Pop. Didn't eat too bad.

Saturday: 3 Bud Lights, 5 cigarettes, Chinese (chicken lo mein) for dinner. Wanted pizza!!!

happy val day

Also - Happy Valentine's Day if anyone ever checks this out! :)

schtick

I need to find a groove for this blogging thingy. I like to write, but I wander. (or type... whatever). I was going to do a little bit every day. I am a slacker, true. So, I will recap the weekend and try to find a direction for my blog.

Friday night was super!! We had excellent seats to the Cavaliers game. They FINALLY won a game. The crowd was really into it. It was like a playoff game. When the floor announcer told the crowd to pump one arm in the air and say "Let's go Cavs!", everyone did it! I tell you what - it looked really flippin' cool!! Like a college football game! (Thank you, Penn State!) R got the tickets from a vendor and we mistakenly thought they were for the VIP Club where there's food and drink. So we took my Mom and Dad and none of us ate before going to the game. Kind of disappointed about the food. We got burgers and chicken sandwiches (OVERPRICED!!!) from the concessionaires. Very dry. We didn't have much time between work and the game. We would have eaten on our way had we known. Next time = more info prior to tip off.

On Saturday, we just relaxed. I think R went to the smoke shop. Then he took Pumpkin out in the snow for about an hour. She came in saying, "All wet!" Her little cheeks were rosy and she was grinning ear-to-ear. That kid loves to be outdoors. Before she went out, she asked Daddy to take her. She said, "Coat. Hat. Boots. No-pants. Gloves." She knows everything she needs to go outdoors! I love it. She gathers it all up, too. It's windy today (Monday) so I think she might blow away, but it's finally a little warmer. Maybe we can go outside later. Later Saturday, I was going to go out to see my friend Jay's band, Average Joe, but I got lazy. I should have just gone. It would have been fun. But I do like being able to go with R, instead of one of us having to stay home with the kids.

During the night, my Big Boy started to cough! He coughed all night and by the time I got him from J in the am, he was WIPED. He also had a fever of 102.9. Since one of his Autie traits is that he doesn't eat anything other than his "regular food" as he calls it, B wouldn't take Children's Tylenol. I knew it would probably help the fever. Finally, I had to give him a choice between Mommy taking care of him or the Doctors in the ER taking care of him .Wise child, he picked me. (Which warms my heart, of course). I added the Tylenol to his juice and he drank it. So that worked. Thank goodness! His little head was on fire! Funny, though, when I said it within his hearing, he was all like, "My head is NOT on FIRE!!". My literal little man. How I do love you. We sat around and watched Toy Story 2 about three times. (yipee!). We're in trouble if he ever gets really sick. We'll just cross that bridge...

R went to do the weekly groceries since he can drive again! Yay! How sweet, he got the kids Valentine's Day presents. A Buzz Lightyear doll for Big Boy and a "Ooh! Pree-y pree-pul" outfit. (pretty purple) for Pumpkin. Mom came over this morning to watch the kids since I called Ben off school and didn't want to wake him up to go to Grandma's. Hopefully, Pumpkin will remember her new clothes. She wanted to wear them today.

It amazes me how different from Big Boy she is. Not just in the normal gender specific things, but in her development. She can get dressed all by herself, sometimes the clothes are backwards, but she gets them right. Big Boy is 6-1/2 and still has trouble with the front and back. He is a little spoiled in that respect, though. We have done too many things for him. It's time to stop babying him. Pumpkin won't allow us to baby her too much any more. Cracks me up. "I try!" is the most common statement. I just put up my hands and say, "Have at it, girl!" She pretty much feeds herself and knows what she wants to eat. Says please and thank you pretty well now. She just seems to connect with life in general on a different level than B. It's hard for me to put into words.

Time to get to work. One of the guys made a mess this morning and the Production manager called in sick, so my boss has to fill in for the second or third day in a row. I can sense he's not thrilled. So I better keep things going right over here. Talk to you later, nobody!! :)

Monday, February 7, 2011

obnoxious

This is a post-ful of hate... I'll get it out  of my system and then post another.

OMG! That one Steeler fan was such a douche last night. Wouldn't stop. Wouldn't go home. Even after his wife and kids left. How in the heck did he get a wife? And no wonder she has a sour puss look on her!! I'd run away!!!!! I hope the kids don't turn out like him. Oy!

I just emailed my bestest friend (and hostess with the mostest) to make sure he's not invited to ANYTHING else. Not really, I'm not that mean.... I wish that R would have punched him!

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

snow & ice

Wow! The driveway was solid ice this morning! Yikes! I hope they don't want to go out to play today. Too much for Mom.

Big Boy is so happy not to have to go to school for two days! He cracks me up! Today when we got there with Pumpkin he said, "Did you bring "A" for me?" Yeah, buddy, just for you! I love the way things come out of his mouth sometimes. His grammar is getting better and better, but I love the quirks. "I will Never!" (translates to: I don't want to). "Get her out of my sight!" (from Shrek, mostly used to get A out of his room). What else? I have to make a list of both kids' sayings.

Mom & Dad are going to Florida tomorrow for the weekend. I hope they can get their flight out with all the bad weather we've been having. I'll tell them to bring money for food and drinks at the airports. I hope they don't have to stop in ATL. Hoping that R's Mom can watch the kids Thursday, at least. I can do it Friday. R will do Monday. So far that's the plan.

Okay, well I'm boring myself. Just want to keep writing this blog to maybe develop some skills. I won't give up yet! :)

Monday, January 31, 2011

monday morning

Ugh! That is all. We had a good weekend, this weekend. Saturday night we went out to Brickhouse (not the greatest food) with some friends. It was fun. Got a big ol' beer tube of Dortmunder Gold and a tap and enjoyed that for a while. It was worth the bad food just for that. The kids got to stay with our friends' kids. Big boy played Wii (OF COURSE!) and Pumpkin bothered everyone and probably screamed a lot. The poor fish in the tank.

Sunday, Pumpkin played outdoors for quite a while. It's just what she needed. That girl needs activity. It curbs the screams. Then she napped - but for far too long. Wouldn't go to bed until midnight. I went to bed and told her not to leave her room. I heard her playing in there for quite some time. She was fine. I guess I shouldn't give her naps anymore.

Earlier in the day, Pumpkin was watching figure skating on TV. She was mimicking the skater. Running around the room and spinning around. It was super cute. I got a video of her on my camera. She did that all night - mimicked the actions of characters on TV. Monsters, Inc. was particularly funny!

Big boy was tired this morning. He almost fell asleep on the way to school. I hope he has a great day! I didn't do his math homework with him this weekend. It'll have to be tonight and/or tomorrow night. I have to help him more with his schoolwork. I can't let him fall behind, but it's hard. I wish I were a better teacher.

Looks like we'll be having more lovely weather here in the Buckeye state. Winter storm watch until Wednesday. Hopefully, it'll pass us by. I don't feel like more snow!

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

not interesting

I think that I have trouble writing here because I'm just not that interesting. Which is why I started doing this in the first place. I tend to think I'm dull. Not stupid. Just boring. I hate the fact that I am not a great conversationalist. I envy those who are. They seem to go father in life in general. Maybe I just need more self-confidence. Humph.... (this could be PMS, I suppose)

Stories for the day....

R keeps getting stuck at work taking care of the loose ends. I guess that's what he gets paid the big bux for, eh? Last night was especially painful. And being in the business, I could tell that R was getting robbed by this broker. (I wonder how many brokers it went through). R took care of the problem with aplomb. And he was in a pretty good mood at home, too! Playing Wii - The Godfather - hah! the Baptism scene. Excellent!

Big boy (B) had FIG Group today at the hospital. This year there are a few more kids. The group is at about 6 now. B seems much more in control after group. If he misses two weeks in a row, like last fall, he is all out of sorts. I got him a follow up appointment with a nurse practitioner taking on Dr. S-L's patients. I am looking forward to it, April 27. I'm glad I called! They are scheduling that far out - that tells you something - there's an awful lot of kiddies out there dealing with this. Big guy did NOT want to go to sleep last night! I've laid with him until he falls asleep since he was two-and-a-half. It's often a pain, but it gives me a little one on one time with him at the end of the day. He's getting to a point that he might not need me there anymore. That's good. Some independence. Or me doing less spoiling. I don't know. He seems to fall asleep faster with someone to burrow into.

Pumpkin (A) is something else! She didn't want to go to sleep last night either. (Prompting me to go out for some smokes and Bud Light! - shame on me) I hope there's nothing wrong more than she's just pushing her limits. Unfortunately, she woke up at 5:15 until 6:30 then conked out making it a complete and utter joy to get her going again when it was time. I have to get this child into day care. My poor mother needs a break! And Pumpkin needs socializing with kids her age. Big boy just shoves her out of the way (for the most part). My little girl. So different from her brother. Ahhh...

Book Fair at the elementary school this afternoon! Maybe they'll have calendars. (I need one or two for home)

Friday, January 21, 2011

friday morning

Well, I really need to get up in the morning at home and write this business. It's probably not the best idea to do it at work. Oh well!

A is sick with a fever, runny nose and cough. She won't take the medicine. Great! B is getting it, too!

We are attending the PTA Mother/Son Carnival tonight at B's school. He's very excited. He says, "Mom, would you come with me to the carnival at school?" It was so sweet! So we will go tonight and hopefully have a good time! I hope we see some friends. I'd like to see how B interacts with them. He's been saying lately that nobody likes him and nobody wants to be his friend. I think the kids might shy away from him due to his outbursts in class and his bluntness/literal-ness.

I'll tell you what. When your kid tells you that nobody likes him or wants to be his friend, it absolutely rips your heart to shreds. You know he's sweet and polite and kind. You know he wouldn't hurt a flea. They see flailing hands and arms. They see a loud mouthed boy who talks too high and too loud. They see a boy who gets too close to them. Gesturing too close. Sometimes not making any sense. Sometimes saying scripts from "Finding Nemo" or "The Powerpuff Girls" (yes, I know - don't know where the fascination with those three came from).


He will have friends soon. He will have a part of his school life. He will make the connections the same as the rest of us. He will have a great childhood. He will be happy!

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Autism is a complex neurobiological disorder that inhibits a person's ability to communicate and develop social relationships, and is often accompanied by behavioral challenges. Autism spectrum disorders are diagnosed in one in 110 children in the United States, affecting four times as many boys as girls. The prevalence of autism increased 57 percent from 2002 to 2006. The Centers for Disease Control and Prevention has called autism a national public health concern whose cause and cure remain unknown.
FROM AUTISMSPEAKS.ORG

well...

We sure blew those NYR's all to hell last night! :) I love my pal!

American Idol starts tonight. I wonder if I can get B into it. Not that the TV is the greatest thing. We shall see! I have to get him off the Wii games or he'll turn into one of those basement kids - all pale and lifeless with dark circles under his eyes. Goodness - I can't wait until spring. We need some outdoors!!!

That's all my dehydrated brain can think of right now. Back to work!

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

new year's resolutions

Mine aren't very resolute (err, I am not resolute). So, the goal is to stop drinking alcohol and smoking cigarettes in order to lose weight and gain money. My bestest friend, J, is doing it, too. She added fried food to her list (just can't do it!) and we both are trying not to drink pop. So - all the good things, right?

The only one I'm succeeding in is not drinking (much) pop. I think since New Year's Day, I have only had three or four cans of pop. Maybe three fountain drinks at McDs. At least it's not two-three a day.

Man, I just HATE giving up beer. The thought is anathema to me. However, I really need to try harder. I have cut it down by about 1/3. Maybe I'll take up wine drinking. An old friend told me that was the way to go. I'll have to check the calories! I'm pitiful. What a piece of work. Hello??? AA??? Anyone?

Cigarettes, they need to go, too. I smell like shit! And I have a strange feeling that they are why my annoying cough will never go away. Hmmm, ya think?

Monday, January 17, 2011

weekend fun

Saturday we went to Sterle's Country House in Cleveland. It is a Slovenian/German/Austrian food place. Pretty good. They had a live polka band and A was dancing like crazy with her cousins! She just kept getting in the "real" dancers' ways. Oh, well. if a kid can't have fun dancing the Polka, then who can?

Sunday, we went to see Toy Story on Ice at Quicken Loans Arena. It was GREAT!!! B was sitting there with his mouth wide open. He loved it! He said he wanted to go home early - couldn't sit still much longer, but he really enjoyed it. He was all worried about not getting to play Wii. He got over that.

A was her usual bad self. There were kids sitting all over the place her age or younger that were calm and enjoyed the show. Miss A wanted to run! And screech and scream and be a regular PITA. She doesn't get the "She's only two!" excuse anymore. R missed most of the second half of the show. He wasn't happy! He said we'd never bring her again, but I know we will. (Said the same thing about Sam's Club - I doubt we'll never go again! )

Friday, January 14, 2011

scary 11_0114

http://www.theagitator.com/2011/01/13/another-isolated-incident-35/#comments

before i kick it...

...there are some bands/musicians I need to see in conceert.

Green Day
Social Distortion
Foo Fighters
The Killers
Bob Dylan
Paul McCartney

am rituals

Ugh! We have a tough time in the morning getting ready for work and school. It should get better soon, but we've had tons of time to get this down pat. I hate being in the car from 7:05 am until 8:05 am every morning!! Somehow, I just can't seem to get moving five minutes earlier! My friends are right - R & I are just a couple of late people.

6:45 (I swear I can't handle 6:30) am: get up, shower (at least a whore's bath), clean up dog's overnight leavings, get dressed. R prefers to get dressed in the living room in front of the wide open, big picture window with all the lights on. Hello! I know that no one SHOULD be looking in our windows before 7am, but who really wants to see that with their pop-tarts??

7:05 am - Should leave the house with sleepy baby A and get to Grandma's house by 7:15. However, we seem to leave at 7:15 instead!! This is the problem. I have to get out at 7:05 or it's curtains for the morning.

7:30-7:40 - Drive back home to get B out the door to school. R feeds him, dresses him. Wow! Good daddy! Thank goodness for the YMCA latchkey program at school. Without them, I don't know where he'd go!!! But the little man needs to play and act silly and talk about his games or give me some dialogue from the most recent favorite movie on the DVR. And what can I do but play along? I love to hear him.

7:45 - Now I have fifteen minutes to get B to school and get to work (20 min away) by 8:00 am. Hmmm. See - it just doesn't happen.

8:10 - Feeling like a jerk, I walk, head down, into the office. Boss & I decided to try 8:30 - 5:30 for a while. But I still am shooting for 8:00. Who wants to work until 5:30 pm in the summertime? Not this girl! We'll wait and see.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

new blog

New blog - first post. Kids, Autism, Fat, Beer, Liberty, Cigarettes... not necessarily in that order.